I am just an ordinary girl. I come from a small town, population 23,000. I go to school 5 days a week and I find a new reason to hate myself every single day. 
I am currently studying year 11 at school. I had depression and anxiety in year 9 and cut myself often, but nobody knew except my boyfriend at the time who never had time for me anyway so I didn't bother. I remember one time I told him about me being depressed and he said "I'm sick of you being sad all the time. You're so selfish." So from that day on, I never spoke to him about it again and our relationship ended shortly after. 

I got out of it, then started getting bullied badly and started having anxiety attacks and cutting again. I'd do anything to not have to go to school. It's kind of funny actually because the girls that bullied me all act friendly to my face now. Pathetic. 

I want to travel and explore and see the world but at the same time I don't want to exist anymore.
I have recently started cutting again and I have been purging since last year. I am a happy person on the outside, but nobody knows the way I think or the way I see myself and wish to die 24/7.
I always try to make others happy and as soon as someone is unhappy with me, it really gets me down. Recently one of my 'bestfriends' has been nothing short of a bitchy cow and it doesnt help that I only started at her school this year and she makes me feel worthless.

I have so many assignments and its only week 5. I keep thinking of the future and I don't see much in it for me. All I see is a young girl who will soon give up. If you read this, I'm sorry you took the time out of your life to read my pathetic story.. I just need somebody; I can't do it alone anymore.